spaced out

i feel like I'm in outer space
orbiting the planet below
the subtle beep I've grown to enjoy
is a lie i pretend to know
as i stare at the earth
i dream of falling toward it
plummeting to a fiery death
in a manor most morbid
i am avoiding the truth
because it makes me sad
i really am falling
but the earth is so fast
the key to flying
is to miss the earth
thats the logic satellites use
but they don't mind
their mood inert
need company only to replace a fuse

Falling this Summer

i ponder while i wander
my brain doesn't want to rest
giving it my all
doesn't mean I've done my best
i guess ill get on the road
this cities already burnt down
i don't have certainty
which is why i wander around

but thank you for reminding me of my practice

i will keep my beginners mind
i will learn what i came here to
i will be kind to others
break the borders of "me" and "you"
theres nothing that can stop me
I've chosen the rabbit hole
my ego awakened in awareness
all in cahoots with my soul

as i fall, fall, fall
i see it all
its only when i stop
i think I've reached the top

i sway east and blow west
the cold wind whipping from the north
pressing my direction south
still always pushing forth
in a steady gravity
i find me translucent
heavily right brained
I'm doing what the left cant

a spirit in human form
the form still yet inaccurate
testing the limits of infinity
defining ones own brackets
i say yes to your answer
i question your query
staple my mouth shut
much to your fury

but
as i fall, fall, fall
i will see it all
its only when i stop
that i fear the drop

palms

i say good sir
panic your manic
did you hear my news?
i haven't heard anything from me
i'm blindly looking so why can i not see?
but who are you and am i we are thus nothing at all
to someone not i but you can seem to fly
to the south my little mockingbird
disregard all you heard
maniacally panic
as you were

the peace will come
with waves much smaller
don't stress over small stuff
stand strong stand taller
everything will be ok
keep your waves calm
sitting cross legged
i focus on my palm

embrasure

i walk into this crowded room
words keep flying at me
i say my piece then intend to leave
my heart feeling the atrophy

their minds all wander
as my words are squandered
syllables fall on deaf ears
my cries for help
become a muted yelp
enriching my greatest fears

yet my silence
yells quite loud
as if my words are useless
i lack the discipline
that it would take
to just remain this muted

i guess ill wait
try not to taint
the loneliness held inside
i feel so faint
but i will embrace
whats trying to take me for a ride

no stress

i flow in and out
my mind unable to post what i say
verbally in disarray
what shall i do
when its awkward to stay?
i do not need to leave
my friends will all do fine
with me without me
drink from their steins
and have their good times
after shots eating the limes

too much flux i need smaller waves
too much mood i need more weed

too bad you say
i disappoint somehow today
the beaten path
the only way
but i stray
i think too much i guess
dreams of apes
all too dumb to dress
sending their calls of distress
i'll be home one day
but right now its too soon to say