over encumbered

you're going to be fine
all you have to do is push through
fight the laziness inside
its your motivation ringing true
but don't do this
nondescript thing
without description
no more hinting
just do it
no questions asked
i don't care if you don't understand
just do as i request
you look at me
with your quizzical look
telling me you don't understand
your conscience is dwindling...

i blink
think for a moment and smile
the calm has come...
...and then...

are you going to be ok?
i remember you have some difficulties
thinking and making decisions
all these things
they could be bad
cause for alarm
bringing you harm!
go seek help
go find your way
you could be dying
but its hard to say!
just tell me this one thing
am i overwhelming you?
is everything ok?
do you understand me?
should i talk a little softer?
shall i fetch you some water?

i sigh and it all washes away
so many contemplations
wandering through my day
my head the icicle
frozen in itself
over encumbered
by all of the stress
my god i want a break
but one doesnt seem to find me...