i try

i try,
i try very hard sometimes
i try to not get involved
its not fair to other people
i'm a mess
and i'm aware
but i try

i turn a blind eye
all the world can still see me
open in all aspects
except for knowing where to be
i've never felt so alone
i've never wanted to leave this much
stuck in waiting
i've never longed so for your touch

i travel alone
even with all these people
aboard my time boat
traveling freely

i will be ok
life goes on always with or without me