tar/ no tar

sleep illudes me again
123 ready to go
the rest of the world disagrees
so i meditate on sacred blue

i feel heavy
not from the lack of sleep
not from sadness
hunger
i have plenty of food
but i eat the fake bits

the moment is nice
calm
still
exactly the space
i want to tell my secrets to
i wish i wanted a cigarette

know rain

i can smell the change
it looms over me like a rain cloud
ready to burst

the pressure drops
then it all falls
no rain no life

i sit in the wet
cursing it
wishing i were dry

i wonder what its like
to be in a warm place,
depressed in agony

everything you own
is now gone to the elements
destruction of your evidence

now you are free
there are no things
to weigh you down

free to change
vocation,
mood or town

no one can stop you
there is nothing to take
unburdened with responsibility

now your mind is open
clear of worldly goods
all is viewed objectively

you have made a choice
wisdom over wealth
sacrificing health

i can hear the change
it flows in like a calm river
happy to host

it cleans and nourishes
more than just you
know rain know life

i sit in the water
splashing it
happy that i'm wet

i wonder what its like
to take life for granted,
calm in connection