silence

this road holds rocks
travel lightly if you can
i know the hills wind
but you'll get there in the end

stories told
come with fears of deaf ears
more unfolds
as i continue on through the years

i remained silent unless silenced

we find new places
all of us are one
familiar faces
with familiar fun

we make our journey
as travelers have before us
to undo all we knew
leaving me evermore curious

i became silenced while silent

as i grow and learn things to show
an arsenal of lessons to teach
i question how can i give while as long as i live
i cannot comprehend my own speech

i may get through
though frustratingly so
what i convey to you
is not all i know

i silenced myself by not being silent

we search our past
for the stories we tell
tales of our tears
emotions we yell

we describe ourselves
as the creations of the past
but these are just stories
feelings not meant to last

i become silent when silenced

the journey we have
none of us the same
is to discover ourselves
and wade through the pain

we can overcome
eventually can conquer
let go of expectation
give all you can offer

i will remain silent even if i'm not silenced

found my way home

to be or not to be
this question finally answered me
to all of those
who knew no clothes
we are who we want to see
be positive
for love is the answer
all those who come to your hilt
why not fight this cancer
your hate will drive you mad
anger causes suffering
love is the way home
all of us drunkenly stumbling
to a destination away
clicking our heels
saying what we say
theres no place like home
i wont rest til i arrive
but you are always here
just observe the hive

oh so many bees
always jumping onto me
surrounding their queens

the honey must be made
the wax there for storage
but its ok to envy
those who set out to forage

THE TRUTH

you reside in my mind all of the time

you don't pay your rent, and we meet on the fly

and you intrigue my eyes

my ears want to cry

the beauty in your words

the syllables all smile

at least thats what i heard

not even a scream can describe my feelings

the most romantic of whispers fail to compare

you want me to stay?

then i'm not going anywhere

but the way you're looking

is just too unfair

you have smooth friendly legs

they dance when they like

your smiling face

not noticing mine

your warm kind hands

throwing all your words

they cool my heart

and heal its burns

your fantasmal mind

and translating tongue

always challenging

creating new fun

Claire,

where the hell did you come from?

i may say it a lot

still can't be more true

i am so amazingly

in love with you

sharpie me i'm in love

i wander now
my thoughts forever more
the translation from right brain
obscured and told the score
to be a human
in this magnificent life
to be forever in love
to eliminate times strife
i am free of my old chains
and here i've gained new
cleaning my pasts stains
while thinking of you
i never would have gotten here
if it weren't for your love
telling me what's what
when push came to shove

for this i am grateful
because of this i have grown
because of this

i am in love

tomorrow beach

under where you tide

my side

the splits that reside inside

why do we lie to ourselves

and deceive your inner child

telling them they are wrong

they can not run wild

who are you to say 

binding your inner mind

let go of your ways

tomorrow's s too late

when every day is today

its time i ramble on

toward where i came

to my destination

the one i can not leave

i am always home

earth is my house

i reside inside

my minds eye

always killing my time

the constant wars

and perpetuating paradox

a consistent cycle

leads me here again

i am always here

i am always home

home is where i roam

yet if i could tell you 

the things that i think

my ponders wildy growing 

threatening to sink

flowing and breaking

like waves of strange horror

splashes of glee throwing me

to an undertide of love

to wake again

on the beach of tomorrow

the number four

my dreams are in flux
sometimes way too much
i'll see where it takes me now

oh, but who am i
far too contagiously high
i'll see you around the town

as you may see by golly
sentenced two years on folly
i guess you were meant to drown

and yet once again said i
you've fallen too many times
now you stand your ground

im seeing in layers

here i sit

my contemplation at its peak

the people all around me

sitting in silence

yet speaking what they call words

they transfer their ideas

their brains trying as they may

correcting the language

of all the friends they make

who are you people

can you even answer my question

what if i take your precious words

would you then use discretion?

there is something in the woodwork here

something different has come

some new existence

one we are not from

but WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE?

and where the hell did you come from?

from moment to moment 

all disappearing and then some

the only thing holding us together 

is the longing to be accepted

the need to be loved

the intrigue of where we're headed

Amelia

kindling the passion
my spirit so desperately needs
so what if i am different
i go and plant all these seeds
these seeds are not all good
in fact most times they are bad
i'm learning from my mistakes
now its time to put them in effect

flow down the river sticks
where have i gone before?
i want to know so much indeed
you will have to tell me more

when i am well again
my spirit will provide guidance
bring me back to full capacity
it's there you reach your highest
the lessons you learn from knowing me
they may not come from my smarts
but rather the trials facing you
inspiring all of your arts